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Manderley Place
06:18
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I don’t want to see the world,
I just want to be your girl.
I’ll do the dishes and I’ll collect
These little things inside my head,
Collecting all the nostalgia
At
Manderley Place
At Manderley everything feels safe…
I can do all of the things for you
I can, I can clean the house for you,
I promise, I promise I’d be a good housewife for you
(You’ll never ever be good enough for me)
I don’t want to be here, oh
I don't know what to do
I just want to, I just want to be good enough for you…
Welcome to
Manderley Place
(you’ll never make me happy,
cook and clean the space
At Manderley Place)
And tonight
You were the light of my life…
I always leave you,
Yes,
And I can’t hide away now
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2. |
The Letter She Wrote
03:46
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Once upon a time there was a little boy you knew
He played the fool
Went to church did well in school
He was a good kid
For a season or two
Once upon a time there was a woman you knew
She played the fool,
Put on the makeup ready for a shakeup
She was a problem
For a man or two
Once upon a time there was someone I once knew
She was a bit naive and a lot confused
And she came crashing down
Like a fool
And once and a while,
He remembers searching for the clue
But he puts it all back down
Turns it around
And now it's back on you
In all my guessing and in all my swearing I kept it all apart from you,
In the letter I wrote
Trying to find an answer in
All the waiting
I never really got back to you…
Are you waiting for a letter or a call?
Are you waiting for anything at all?
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3. |
The Name
03:48
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I will honor the home,
And I will honor the legacy.
I will
Honor the name,
I will wear it upon my chest, I swear,
I will honor your name
And I won’t let you down.
Honor your name, your name, your name
(I live, I live, I live)
(I live, I live without, I live)
Will I fade away?
(What will I be)
Wearing ‘til I fade away?
(You’re wearing)
Nothing,
(Will I live like this forever?)
‘Til I fade away,
Nothing,
(Will I live like this forever?)
‘Til I fade away.
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I can feel your hand
Coming around on a porous day,
And the wind gently kisses your face,
And all the time is wrapped up
All in one place.
Do you remember
The way you smiled at me?
Glassy eyed.
I never thought I’d lose you,
I never thought about distance from the sea to the shore,
Oh, I never thought about distance when
I wouldn’t see you anymore…
(Glassy eyed)
VITALIA:
Oh, the pearls, the pearls of our love,
They’re so precious,
They shine,
They’re heavy,
They’re smooth,
Cast before swine, now aren’t they?
Spilled upon the floor,
The clattering,
I still hear it.
I don’t hear you cooking in the kitchen anymore,
I don’t hear the noises of you getting up in the morning.
What was sacred,
I just hear a clattering,
Clattering on the wood floor.
I remember how the sea smelled salty,
Like your sweat,
Like the regret that
My heart was so broken,
Cracked open,
So precious,
The pearls of our love,
Cast before swine!
I made me a new necklace,
One that’s closer to my heart.
You’re too far away to wear it.
It’s heavy and smooth,
And it shines in the right light…
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5. |
The War (feat. VITALIA)
03:54
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I was there for you!
I protected you!
Please, baby, please…
I was there for you!
And every time, I protected you.
And when everything goes unturned
And everything becomes reversed,
You can’t be there for me!
You can’t protect me!
But I, I was there for you,
I protected you!
I was there for you!
I protected you!
V: (AW, I didn't ask you for the protection!)
Don’t you see, baby,
I was there for you!
And I protected you!
Can’t you see, baby,
That I was there for you?
V: (You miss me, liar!
You never leave)
I would’ve done anything for you,
I would’ve been there for you,
I would’ve protected you!
And maybe, maybe,
When things turn around
You can't be there for me,
You can’t protect me!
And maybe when I fuck up
I have to own it, baby!
V: (No NO NO NO NO NO!
You’re a liar.
Liar, you never leave,
Never.
You don’t own me,
I’ll never die!
I’ll never)
I protected you,
Baby…
V: (I never asked for this,
You gave this to me,
You want me,
You made me,
You.)
V: Who me?
I never knew.
Little old me,
I never do.
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BETTY:
I was trying to save,
I was trying to save you.
When you hold me so close,
Do you feel the tiny pulse?
Do you feel the temperature rising?
Does the heart skip a beat?
Hold and release.
Is it keeping up with the timing?
Are we declining?
(Are we fallen?)
Do I need to have a seat?
Do you need to repeat these steps to find me?
Are we lost in the frost?
(Am I gone?)
Frozen in the glacier.
Or am I just a bunch of tiny thoughts?
Brought up in conversation,
(Just some thoughts)
Tangled with a few good ideas,
But I don’t really belong here!
Calling it something awful,
So sullen,
Just like your soft tears.
(It’s a cry for help)
It’s all fear!
Who let this darkness in here?
(Let it in)
As we huddled around the tree,
Our spirits were engulfed in that old aroma,
Once the smoke cleared,
I could barely stand to know ya.
I want to start over,
I wish.
Rebecca:
I was trying to save myself,
And nothing at all.
B: I was trying to save,
I was trying to save you.
R: Oh,
You couldn’t protect me,
Oh, and if you’re trying to appease impossible me,
It has created some ghost
Of a woman you wanted to love
And I know you felt like
You were never enough
Truth is,
You needed a filler from someone
(me)
Someone you could have lift you up
And now you see,
Now you can see…
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Oh
I don’t want to be here,
And I don’t know what to do
But I’m not in love anymore,
Not with you.
And I don’t want to be here
And I don’t really have a clue
What to do now, baby,
I’m not in love with you,
I don’t want to be here,
I don’t know what to do,
Oh but, baby,
I’m not in love with you.
And I don’t just want to leave,
I don’t want to go
Walk out that door anymore,
I don’t know how to end this…
I’m not in love with you.
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Rebecca:
You know I wasn’t very good to you
You know I wasn’t good enough to you
I wasn’t good to you
BETTY:
When you hold me so close,
Do you feel the tiny pulse?
Do you feel the temperature rising?
Does the heart skip a beat?
Hold and release.
Is it keeping up with the timing?
Are we declining?
Do I need to have a seat?
Do you need to repeat these steps to find me?
Am I lost in the frost?
Frozen in the glacier.
Or am I just a bunch of tiny thoughts?
Brought up in conversation,
A good idea,
But I don’t belong here
My calling is something awful,
I’ve fallen,
sullen,
Just like your soft tears.
It’s all fear!
Who let this darkness in?
I huddled around the tree,
As I was sparkling,
Can’t find the calm within,
I often make the same mistakes as many men
Perhaps I’m only one of them
because I can not be the perfect boy for ya, babe
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9. |
The Mess We Made
04:31
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I don’t want to clean up the broken pieces
Look at the mess we made
Gotta keep cleaning up the broken pieces
You can have all the finer things we kept,
I don't want them,
You can have the wedding ring,
‘Cus I dont want it
Look at the mess we made
I don’t want this,
I know we got the baby,
This marriage and the war
But I can’t clean up your messes anymore
I can’t clean up the messes anymore
But I just want it to be
All okay,
And I,
Just want it to be all okay
(Can we just say that we’re okay?)
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10. |
How Things Changed
05:41
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When I was a little girl,
You swept me away.
Now after a season or a few,
I can’t stand looking at you.
Oh, how things have changed.
Oh, you know how things have changed,
I mean, after the baby and after the war,
I don’t think we look at each other very much anymore
And I am tired of apologizing.
And all the things
We swept under the rug,
And all the memories it brings
That we don’t love each other enough.
And now I am not the clown,
You put on the makeup and fool around,
And now I am not the clown anymore.
And now I saw
All the things we sweep under the rug
And all the memories that flash before us,
And now I,
I can’t hide away,
All the little things you wished you’d say
But I’m not the clown anymore
(There’s no pulse,
She must be lost at sea,
Who else could she be?
There’s no pulse)
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11. |
Family
02:19
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I give myself to the sea,
The part that birthed me,
The post-partum apathy of
What I gave birth to,
The wounds that were fundamentally apart of me,
I taught you on a home built upon lies,
A generational transaction
Lullabies that look like false starts and alibis,
Excuses
I called you family,
And I called you home,
I feel it slipping and now it’s gone
I called you friend,
And I called you lover,
A bed made up of mistrust and fear,
And now you’re leaving,
And now you’re no longer here
I called you family,
And now you’re no longer here
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(Originally by Coldplay)
If you’re lost and feel alone,
Circumnavigate the globe,
All you ever have is hope,
For you.
And the way you seem to float,
Circumnavigate the globe,
And they seem to lose control
With you.
Ahhhh aaaaaa
Everyone of us is hurt,
Everyone of us is scared,
Everyone of us is here
For you
For you
And your eyes close,
And your head flows,
And your eyes closed
Ahhhh aaaaaa
Everyone of us is hurt,
Everyone of us is scared,
Everyone of us has hope
For you,
For you…
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MX.MRS Kansas City, Missouri
MX.MRS, brainchild of Mazzy Mann, is a universe of characters to reckon with identity in a society that is broken and misunderstanding.
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